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FAX NO. 609 235 5569 MEREDITH FINANCIAL SERVICES
transmittal for Mrs. Estelle Jacobson c/o Mr. Edward Jacobson
This is probably a goofy thing, but it may shed some light on the psychological background of the decision to terminate me at Akin Gump.
1. In one of my earlier letters I speculated that a possible rationale for my termination was that the firm was afraid that I might sue the firm, that it might be possible for me to gather the evidence necessary to proceed with an action against the firm. This was purely unsubstantiated speculation on my part. But this possible reaction of management has a possible parallel in an incident at Hogan & Hartson.
[I remember at my meeting with Earl Segal on the afternoon of October 23, 1991 at which I reported instances of harassment, I said to Mr. Segal that some of the acts of my coworkers might be "tortious." Mr. Segal's eyes widened when I used the word tortious; it looked as if his eyes might pop out of their sockets!]
2. In early January 1987 I was working on a special project for the attorney Maree Sneed re: The Milwaukee Public Schools desegregation case. The task required that I work at a computer terminal in the computer applications department on the fifth floor of the building, in the area occupied by Sheryl Ferguson. At one point, Sheryl Ferguson said angrily to Maree Sneed, “How much longer is this going to go on? There has already been a security breach because of him.” I vaguely recall that Sheryl Ferguson said, “I want him out of here.” Thus, once again, the notion of wanting to be rid of me because of what I might discover, what I might be able to prove
3. Compare my parable about the Arab student who raises the ire of authority figures because of his design of a nuclear bomb. Authority figures fear what he has discovered, what he has “proven.” Thus, this dynamic--which related to my work with Dr. Palombo--has applicability to my therapy, my relationship with my therapist, and my own fantasy life. We may say that the dynamic relates to both the transference and counter transference. The dynamic may shed light on my termination at Akin Gump. This may sound bizarre, but Akin Gump management may actually have terminated me in part because it came to accept--irrationally--the validity or reality of my own fantasy, my own irrational self-image as a “discoverer.” It may be that Akin Gump management irrationally accepted and made a rationalized business decision based on its having accepted my own self-image as a “Columbus,” thereby transforming my private irrational into objective reality. One might say that I become again and again a victim of my own PR.