What's the Word?

If there were a word that meant
thought, mind, spirit
and wish, desire,
appetite.

And memory,
and recall. And finally also
will, purpose, intention,

we might have it down:
The lonely middle-aged man
filled with wanting without being filled with hope,
filled despite

the longing, being just sated enough.
An afternoon on a park bench
with a friend,
gazing at passersby, reminiscing.

And if we did have the word?
Not just one thing alone,
and not just longing.